My brain is trying to kill me

I want to trade in my brain for a new one! 

I had this great instruction session yesterday, the professor told me it was really helpful. But I'm all in my head about it today - I shouldn't have said this, I shouldn't said that. 

I also did a little internal professional development training at work today - it's a new thing we're trying, and I was the first one to do it! I worked really hard on it, and I thought it was really great (though I'm a bit taken aback at how little engagement I got from my colleagues - I built in so many opportunities to weigh in on the topic; half the room looked aggressively uninterested and contributed absolutely nothing the entire time). Now, I'm all in my head about it, fretting about what I should have done differently - I shouldn't have included this, I should have included that. 

Holy shit, it's like an infection, or a disease.😬

Party time at Sunflower House

 This week is really trying to break my spirit

Yet AGAIN, no good deed goes unpunished

 One of the professors asked me if I could help with the page numbering in his student's dissertation. I said sure, of course. The student sent me the document and I added the page numbers, and fixed the margins and a few other egregious errors. I also offered some unsolicited advice about the formatting, especially the headings and ToC. He asked if I could help with that and I said okay, though now it is getting to be more than a quick favor. 

I sent him the dissertation guidelines that another professor had given me (why hasn't he received this?) After a few more emails, he sent me a list of the new headings, asking me to make the changes and then generate the ToC. I said he needed to make the changes himself, and then I would generate the ToC (at this point, I also said I normally get paid for this type of editing work). 

So he sends me the revised document, but he uses his original instead of the version I had corrected for him (free of charge!) He actually said "add what you did before" - so cavalier. Just redo all the work I did for nothing. Unbelievable level of entitlement and lack of appreciation.

I learned my lesson - the next time someone asks for editing help as a "favor," I will negotiate for payment, regardless of  how minor the help they appear to need.

ADDENDUM

To be fair to this student, he offered to compensate me for the help I'm providing, and asked me to review his references and citations (which are a mess, as are his tables, figures and appendices).

Vindication

I guess I did something right

 

Persona

 

In Alana's art therapy class, they had to color in an outline of their body. Alana's is on the right, it's called "goodbye perfectionism." She said, "I started with purple (my fav color) where my heart would be and then just worked outwards with whatever color I wanted in whatever shape happened."

Lack of awareness

 

 All the photos in this guy's profile were muscle shots like this, most of them shirtless.

It's just so perfect that after all those bodybuilding shots, he says, "love is everything."  😕🙄😄

 

Hinge chat

 I guess, if your only social interactions are at bars...